New Year, New Goals

I see many people make a resolution to read the Bible through in a year. In itself, that is not a bad resolution. But what about consistency? I want to be consistent in my daily Bible reading. I have seriously been spiritually starved and it's all my own fault. I have decided that I want to read my Bible for half an hour every day, at the start of the day. Spiritual health is important, as is physical health. I'll be working on that area as well. I want this year to better than last year.

Dear Lord,
I know I have severely lacked in obedience to Your Word and in personal service to you. Please fill me with the desire to draw as close to you as possible. My life needs that. Please help me to be a better witness for Your this year.
In Jesus' name,
Amen.


I want to know you 
I want to hear your voice 
I want to know you more 
I want to touch you 
I want to see your face 
I want to know you more
-Hillsong

Honesty

I'll be honest. Life sucks right now. Financial debt has me buried and there is no light at the end of the tunnel. It's as dark as all get-out. Not even a pin point of light peeking through. I feel as if I have worked my whole life and have gotten no where. I was so-so while in college, but after that, it was a big sinkhole. I just don't understand why this has to happen.

I do know God is in control, but I still do not understand.

I've Lost it

Revelation 2:4
Nevertheless I have somewhat against thee, because thou hast left thy first love.


Have you ever been there? That's where I'm at right now. I'm in that rut. Vance Havner describes a rut like this: Many people are in a rut and a rut is nothing but a grave-with both ends kicked out. How true. 


Being a Christian for 16 years certainly has not made me some super Christian. In fact, I feel as if I have fallen further away and it's of my own doing. God is right where I left Him. I know the words to say and I know what to do, but what is holding me back? If I'm honest with myself, it's selfishness, plain and simple.  I want to do what I want to do when I want to do it. Oh, this dreadful human, sinful nature! 


I don't know how often I'll be posting, but I do want to document my growth. I want to get my relationship right with the Lord. 


Lord,


I know I haven't been doing all I should be doing for you. I've fallen away. Please help get back on track. You are all-knowing. Thank you for all you've given me. I don't deserve it all. I want to return to first-love feeling I had when I first got saved. There was such joy and excitement and I so looked forward to our meetings. Life has pulled me this way and that and I've let it steal that joy from me. You alone can restore that. Lord, I start anew with your grace.


In Jesus precious name, 


AMEN